I'm just shy of six months pregnant... something in the neighborhood of 22 - 24 weeks but really more like 5 months... arggghhhh The little guy's been growing in there since February... how's that?
It's all complicated really. We were planning our wedding... it was stressful even though it shouldn't have been... anyway, a few weeks before our wedding. Go ahead, throw the rocks. It won't change a thing.
We were going to get married in October. We decided around Christmas to move it to March. Made all the arrangements to move our chapel reservation to March, get the atrium at our chosen hotel for the reception and had it all finalized in time to send out the invitations February 1st. Life was good... I'd moved mountains and I'd done it all by myself. :-) We'll leave the in-laws out of it for now. I can almost understand. Almost and it's a whole other post for another day.
Ah and then the drama...
Now we knew,honestly, knew at the time that it was possible... and yet at my age and with my history, we were more hopeful than fearful that one day we could have a baby. I was 'late' for the wedding, and thought, maybe??? Then it seemed I was just 'late' and hope went by the wayside. Then six weeks of uncertainty and what do you know... late again. Well hmmmm.... so we test, and test, and test, and everything comes up unclear but possible. Then cramps and bleeding again and my heart sinks. I've been there before. Still it's only intermittent. I want to hold onto the tiny bit of hope that has held on all this time. I wander my way to the internet and get all kinds of mixed messages. (yes, it's possible to have bleeding and cramping without miscarrying and it's hard to say it's uncommon from what I've read).
At any rate, off to the doctor's I go and YES we have a baby in there. The sixty-five thousand dollar question then was, 'how long has he been there?' More drama follows trying to get an appointment with Dr. A... my obgyn since 1995, I love my doctor, hate his clinic. We finally got to hear our son's heartbeat at something like 18-19 weeks.
Happiness - yes and no. I could be happy if I could be really quiet about it. We waited to break the news to the family. Well hello, how's- that work for happy. Dear Husband wanted to wait for the ultrasound and then finally tell everyone.
June 12 was our ultrasound. Yea!!!! I get to be happy. Just in time too b/c blind people can probably tell there's a baby in there now. (no offense to anyone sight impaired). Little guy is not shy, he's growing and I look very pregnant. And now I know I'm right about the dates. He's due in October and measuring two weeks ahead in overall size.
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He's lucky to have a Mom like you.
LUMI
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