Forward is the only option

You can look back, but you can never travel there.   Forward is the only option. Well standing still is an option too.  It's a temporary option though.

Look back...  learn... forgive...  keep moving forward.   Small steps if you need.  A leap of faith every once in a while.  If you fall short, it's okay.   Pick yourself and know that you tried.  You survived. You are stronger.  Maybe even a little wiser.  Make some good memories.  Memories that make you smile, laugh, blush if you need...  Good Memories.  

Every day is a chance to make a wonderful day.  Note a chance, not a guarantee.  Can't always win that one.  Still if you deliberately try to make wonderful days, I firmly believe you will end up with more wonderful days than if you just sat and hoped for one.  

I'm still feeling a little lost.  That's not always a bad thing though.  If you are lost and don't know it... that's bad.   When you know you are lost, you can find your way home. I'm trying to give myself the time for the journey. The time to take in my surroundings so that I can chart the path back to me.  I expect her to be a different me this time.   It's a feeling or an instinct maybe, I just know that life has changed and with it so must I.

What I think matters...  I forget that sometimes.   It's coming back to the surface though.  I'm an admitted over-thinker.  I listen to people tell me that I over think and sometimes discount my own thoughts in self defense. I need to fight that tendency.    What everyone else thinks isn't irrelevant. Still, it needs to be balanced.