I want to get my masters next but when to do it... so I'll just have to hold onto that wish for a while.
It was a hard decision just to go back to school this time. I am torn between my family that I love more than anything and the desire to learn in a formal setting. My kids need me to be here. I have to work of course so we have a home and the things we need day to day. I have to have my kids. That sounds a bit odd I suppose, but being their mom is as much a need as a responsibility. I never wanted to live through them. I just want to be there as they grow and learn and become who they are meant to be.
I not your typical parent by the way. I've got all these rules like a real mom... but then I think life is a choose your own adventure thing - so I want my kids to do just that. Some people tell me it's not enough structure, and others just don't get it. If they want to do silly things - and it won't hurt anyone - I say do it! My kids would tell you I'm tough anyway - so maybe there's balance.
I'm naturally feeling a bit lost these days. A chapter is closing and I'm not sure where I'm headed.
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Baby Zach is growing so much right now. Two weeks ago he started trying to pull himself up and now he crawls all over the living room pulling himself up on the sofa, then down and crawl to the chair or the coffee table... round and round. It's amazing how much energy he has.Speaking of growing munchkins...
This is what makes life a joy. The smallest skill learned is HUGE. He's afraid of nothing, so open and it takes so little to make him laugh.
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The rest of life... going is a bit hard right now... but maybe that's my own fault... and a different blog.
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