The past week has had its ups and downs, yet more up than down so that's a plus. Friday night a friend and I drove south to one of their friend's home. The purpose was to drop off a computer. Still. I don't get out much and I don't mind driving. :).
It was out away from the lights of town and the view of the blue moon was wonderful. I loved getting the better view of the stars and the company of two people who don't filter any thing. Whatever comes to mind... They say it. So refreshing. Dinner was phenomenal. Steaks grilled and sooo good. Potatoes. Asperagus too. It's near never that someone cooks dinner for me and man it was fantastic. Great random conversation and nearly no stress. I posted about it on fb but there's someone out there who would be upset by it so I had to take it down. :( I wanted to replace it with never let anyone steal your joy, then thought better of it. I didn't lose the joy. I remember all it. I'm happy. I can write about it here.
Matt built me a computer in the last few days as well and she's awesome. The computer aside,I think we are in a better place. Friends. We've always met eye when it came to computers and he loves building them. I worried with the divorce that we would become enemies and I'm so glad to know we haven't. We had dinner with Zachy this evening and babbled about a lot of trivial stuff. Peaceful and makes me hopeful we can pull off this joint custody/life after divorce thing. He will always matter to me. I'm just so darned good with it being history. I loved him with all my heart. It wasn't what he needed. I waited five years. He ended it. I cried my river. I built my bridge. I'm on the other side now and if I look back the bridge is still there but it crosses a different river.
I am growing my circle of people to talk to. Not the deep introspect that I put in the blog, just friendly people who are far more extroverted than I am. I'm hoping it will grow me a bit to hang around social people and learn to navigate beyond the hide in my house, keep to myself. Baby steps that looking back seem like giant leaps.
Oh life is good sometimes.
